Just tell the truth. It WILL lead to people being upset with you, but that’s something you will have to face if you genuinely care about the people in your life who have been affected. You can’t claim you care on one hand and on the other refuse to let go of what you have created. I know you care about them but continue to lie will do nothing but hurt them more.
If you want to hurt them more, carry on with the lie. If you want to start over, tell them the WHOLE truth. Part truths don’t work because they only relieve guilt for a short while and lead you right back to where you started. This time, though, you’ll end up feeling even MORE guilty because you will have told them you’ve told them everything.
It’s not worth it. If the people you have affected are meant to be in your life in the long run, they may forgive you. But just remember that if you don’t come clean or you tell half truths or white lies, you will only be showing that you care more about your own feelings and shame levels more than you care about them.
Whilst you should care about yourself and take care of number one before anyone else, there is a stark difference between taking care of yourself and taking from others; in lying, you are doing the latter I am afraid.